Time consuming…

This blog making malarkey is a pain in the ass.

It is already 11.30am and all I have been doing this morning, instead of attempting to be an articulate and witty blogger, is try and figure out how this fracking WordPress website works.  All I wanted to do was change the colour of the title banner, and I still haven’t figured out how to do it.

I’m not a huge fan of technology.

Don’t get me wrong I am as competent as the next person, however, I do not like the way that you get sucked into the tech.  Before you know it, 5 hours has gone by and you have only perused through the profile of that person you met in Bristol outside a boutique and talked for an hour about pretzels thus discovering your best friend’s cousin knew someone who went to the same playschool as their best friend’s cousin.

Annoying.

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Never Say Can’t…

As they used to say; ‘There is no such word as Can’t’  😉

Jen

Jen, 27, was adopted at birth after being born with no legs due to a genetic birth defect.  She was taken in by a family with three sons and they raised her exactly the same… they taught her that there are no limitations.

So, Jen was drawn to sports and despite her disability she excelled in gymnastics.  Jen competed in the Junior Olympics and won a State Championship in tumbling competing against able-bodied people.

At 6 years old Jen idolized American Olympic gymnast Dominique Moceanu, and came to learn later on in life that Dominique was actually her sister.  Whaaa?!?! How about that for a plot twist, haha!

Now Jen works as an acrobat, aerialist and motivational speaker and has toured with Britney Spears, performing acrobat routines.

Jen says: “Although people I’ve just met are always amazed by what I can do, outside of work my friends say they forget that I’m any different.  I use a wheelchair to get around but I feel happiest performing acrobatic feats and hanging from silk threads.  Right now I’m living my dream – traveling the world and connecting with people from all walks of life.  My latest challenge is learning to dance – something I was never sure I’d be able to do.  Working with a professional dancer, I’m choreographing a routine which incorporates my aerialist skills.

We are all born with unique gifts and talents and I want to show people we can use them to change lives.

Finding out my idol was my long lost sister was just the beginning, my life has been about making the impossible, possible.”

http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/world-news/gymnast-no-legs-tells-joy-4623666

Best laid plans…

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This blog will kind of be like my journal.  I have decided to start this blog because I have a lack of ability when it comes to expressing myself and recognizing my own emotions.  So here I am, hoping that in providing some kind of place for my musings, rants, confessions and apologies I will get to know myself a little better, maybe even start to forgive myself and move on from my past failures in life.

My plan here is to try and be as honest as I can with myself.  In doing so I hope to obtain growth and a sense of emotional maturity and responsibility.  I want to become happy with myself and happy in my life in general, I would like to feel that even if I fail generally at life in some way I can feel satisfied it was a fail in the most purest of senses and not because of some deep seated self-sabotage.

In sharing this blog I am hoping that I might reach others who are also going through some kind of turmoil and searching for understanding within themselves.  Knowing that there are others who can relate on some level and vice versa helps me to see the wood for the trees, and I don’t feel completely alone and detached.  I like the thought that I may be able to impart some insight to others who are just beginning their journey to self discovery, like some surrogate older sister or the auntie you can tell your secrets too because you know your parents would not quite get it.

Well, a bit about me.

The past two years have been a fracking roller coaster.  I don’t really like roller coasters.  I have learnt things about myself and seen sides of myself I did not even know were there or existed or I was capable of, good and bad.  I have lost friends, quit my job, started anti-depressants and had counselling, passed my driving license, met and now building a relationship with my mother and younger sister, worked self employed, left my home and old life (twice), lost (or rather left) someone who I really fracking loved, made new friends and family and found an amazing friend and lover, tried to top myself (twice), I am unemployed, starting new antidepressants (tonight), and I have no idea what is going to be around the corner.

I drink too much, I like to do other things to excess, I am an adventurer, I love food, I am creative, I love animals, I have changed my hair and hair colour too many times to mention in the past two years and will probably continue to do so, and I have about ten tattoos of which 50% are a bit naff.

So, I guess that’s about it for an introduction for now.

I’m looking forward to seeing how I keep up with this and to become part of the blogging community.

Thank you for having a read and feel free to leave any comments etc. I look forward to hearing from you all.

Ttfn 🙂 x